Onyx

September  18,2013

                                                               Oynx

First of all let me start this off by saying Onyx is a dog we fell in love with and adopted and 12 hours later after being up all night coming to the conclusion that having a dog wasn’t for us. We live in a 750sq ft 1br apartment with a baby,3 cats and a fish and even before a dog was tight so we had no right to bring in a dog to the mix at least not now. Once we get a house or a condo with a yard would have been a better time. Every single day I think about Onyx and my heart is trampled into a million pieces I am crushed heartbroken all and above. The other day I woke up from a dream where we were able to keep her   then I came to the reality it was just a dream I wanted to cry and my heart just hurt even more. The people who have fostered her think we’re the worst people in the world and it hurts a lot I know adopting a dog like that and then after adopting her coming to that realization is horrible. Believe me I’m feeling it I’m feeling the pain and hurt and I don’t know if this pain will ever go away I for sure know I will never ever forget her. As I’m writing this my heart is breaking but I knew it had to be done. After all this happened and dealing with the aftermath I have thought of donating money, dog toys, doing things in her honor I even thought of naming a star after her. But the reality is I don’t have the money to give as much money as I would like and I don’t know if the foster Mom would throw out the toys I donate or burn them. I can volunteer though and help that way. I’m sorry that this happened the way it did I wish I could take it back, I would if I could.