Baby Withdrawl and my baby is getting big

I know my baby is only 4 months but she's getting so big I feel like I just had her. She's with my Mom this weekend visiting relatives down in South jersey and I miss her like crazy!. I feel like a piece of me of my heart and soul is missing when she's not with me. I never knew I could feel this way yes I know how it is with my Mom, My Husband but its a total different feeling when its your child. I would give the world for my child and face anyone for her I would take a bullet for her or give my life for her just so she would never feel pain and just that's my love for my child. Its like ok I might be tired when I have her but I miss her like crazy when I don't the tiredness is so worth It when I look in her eyes and see the love and see the smile on her face and hear her giggle and watch her facial expressions. She's my everything just like my family because she is my family too and I would move the earth for her.I Love You Baby.

I was blowing raspberry at my daughter and I could remember like yesterday when my grandpa was doing that to me I miss him Sooo much everyday every minute every second every micro second with all my body and soul.

The Elephant In The Room

Post Partum Depression
"I always wanted to be a Mom It was and is my dream".
          On August 23,2012 at 7:44pm my life changed forever one of the greatest things happened my daughter was born. She came after a long,hard,stressful and traumatic etc. delivery. I went in Tuesday at 6pm and got induced and later that night got the epidural which worked sometimes and hurt going in and at the end I felt everything anyway and I had my daughter Thursday at 7:44pm so needless to say it was a long labor. I was in so much pain I was out of it I was pushing for 3hrs my Mom says. My water was broken for 29hrs they said if I didn't dilate soon I would have to have a emergency C-section which probably would have been better since the outcome of not having one wasn't good either just because of not dilating as fast as we would like and having to get induced in the first place at 38weeks pregnant. Because my water was broken so long my daughter came out and she wasn't doing good my Mom says she was purple, I was still out of it because of everything so I remember some and not other things. My daughter was actually born with a blood infection e-coli because of my water being broken so long so I only got to hold her a couple seconds before she was whisked away to the NICU and she was put on breathing machines for a hour or so and was in a isolate with wires everywhere. She was in the hospital a total of 11days and 6 of those days she was in the NICU. The whole time she was in the hospital she was on antibiotics and one day she was in a isolate for jaundice because her levels raised over night.

        I spent two days in the hospital and I was discharged and I had to leave my baby and go home it was the hardest thing I ever had to do besides delivering her, that day was one of the saddest days in my whole life. My Husband had to be somewhere so he couldn't take me home so my Mom did, I had to wait in the lobby alone for her to get the car while I was there I saw a family with a empty car seat coming to get there baby. When she got there and I got in the car I lost it and I burst into tears and didn't stop crying until we got home and my heart was entirely broken I felt as if I couldn't breathe a piece of me was missing. When we got back in the area we went to go see Ray I needed to see his face feel his comfort know he's there have a hug from him the person I made this beautiful child with who we had to leave at the hospital. Ray had two weeks he could spend home with us our daughter was in the hospital everyday but three of them.

         Everyday we went to see our baby no matter how tired we were how emotional we we're out mentally exhausted because we we're now parents who are in charge of caring for another human being who counts on us. Everyday I went in heard from the doctors saw the wires heard her cries wished I could take her pain away. All through everything I was also trying to breast pump/breast feed it wasn't easy hoping and praying I had enough disappointed and down on myself when I didn't seeing/hearing/reading about all the people who had more could get more and every time I breast pumped I would get this horrible pain in my stomach that made me want to be in the fetal position because that felt like all I could do. I was constantly on the move between trying to provide food and nourishment for my child running doing errands going to the hospital and trying to maintain a sensible house. Dealing with what was happening post partum and my body changing and doing stuff I wasn't used to I was exhausted in all senses of the word I would catch cat naps but it was never enough and keeping hydrated was next to impossible for me.

        Down comes the rain. When I came home I was crying more often and anxious and had more anxiety I would be sitting there pumping and I would be crying and streams of tears would be coming down my face. I could cry with a tip of a hat I just couldn't stop. One day Ray was parking the car and I was waiting in the lobby because I couldn't walk far and another couple was coming to bring there baby home I was silently crying inside and my insides felt like shreds and broken. Everything was getting to me and my patients we're shot I had no idea what was going on. I actually took that post partum thing they give you before they discharge you and I pasted because I thought what I was feeling was normal but it wasn't I was in trouble. When the baby finally came home I had no idea how to do everything like any new parent and my Mom was there to help. The baby crying started to make me want to hide and not want to do anything and I felt like I couldn't get enough sleep at all. I would do things for the baby but I always felt like I wanted to do something else I had no idea what was wrong with me. I started not wanting to be alone with the baby and being very clingy to my Mom because she took care of the baby for me when I felt like I couldn't I felt as if I was going to hurt myself or someone else. I was lost. 

       The diagnoses finally came when I couldn't take it and I knew I needed help I didn't want to be this way for me or my family and especially my baby. I called my doctor and told them I need to be seen and I was seen the same day and I was diagnosed with PPD (post partum depression).The doctor said that with everything I was through it made it more possible of me getting it and because I had depression before in my life. He made sure I knew that it happens to a lot of mothers and I am not a bad mother it is a disorder/disease. He prescribed me medicine to help which it did. I finally am feeling like I'm getting better and my baby is almost 3 months it's a work in progress. I now do everything for my baby my Mom only stayed the first month and we see her some days and she does help sometimes then too. I love my daughter with all my heart and soul and now that I'm feeling better I wish I could rewind and get all the time back that I lost with me being sick and not being able to enjoy it every last minute every last second. I'm trying to tell myself and remind myself I'm a good mom and there's nothing more I could have done I got better for me and my baby and my family that's what I needed, wanted, had to do. I'm hoping my daughter doesn't hate me and knows I'm her mother and I love her. Now that I'm feeling better everything about her amazes me and she's so beautiful and I think to myself how could I have let that PPD get to me I wish I could change it and have it never had happen but I can't and as some people say it has molded me into the person I am today the mother I am today. I wanted to share my story in hopes of it getting out there and hearing about other peoples stories and people that went trough the same or similar thing as me. I wanted to come out and let people know why I was the way I was and why I wasn't myself.

Post Partum Depression Is not something to mess with it's real very real and I'll never fully be healed it feels like but I am a work in progress and I love my child and I will for forever and eternity.

Yes I Have Post Partum Depression But I Am A Survivor And I'm Never Going To Give Up. I Am A Great Mother And My Family and My Daughter Loves Me!.

Thank you to all the people who have and continue to be there for me.
My Mom, My Husband, My Family, My Doctors and My Friends I love you all and I will love you all for forever and eternity and I appreciate everything.

Formula

It's un believable how much formula costs these days it's insane. I know breastfeeding is cheaper but sometimes it just doesn't workout. I breastfed in the beginning but then I switched to formula as it just worked for us. In the beginning we we're using simulac advance then we went to simulac sensitive and then we tried Enfamil gentalease and then we went back to simulac sensitive and now were on target up and up sensitive which is working great.

Simulac advance- free-used in the hospital she didn't like it at all kept spitting it up
Simulac sensitive- free in hospital but out of hospital its around 23 to 28 dollars for a regular size can and 30 for 60 bottles worth for bj's size can Madison did very well with this one she doesn't really spit up and we started using rice and probiotics for digestion and helping to keep her full and to help with reflux.
Target up and up sensitive-19 to 22 great price and great product Madison loves it and has the same ingrediants as the simulac sensitive put rice in it and it was easier for her to drink and she drank it faster 20 to 30 min vs hr with simulac.

Using things are just as good as using name brand and you get more in them usually too and there cheaper and usually have the same ingredients too.

Precious

So now Madison is 11 weeks old and she is truly amazing!. It seems like everyday she is learning something new and it is amazing to watch and experience and have this true joy watching my daughter grow and experience new things. I remember when she first found her tounge and she would stick it out all the time and the joy in my heart when she opened her eyes for the first time and I saw them and they we're looking directly at me. The first time I saw her was amazing knowing that this beautiful life came out of me and knowing that she will achieve greatness by just being in this world and just by her being born made this world a better place. Everyday I look at her and I fall more and more in love with her and the person she is and our connection is getting so deep and so strong. She might look like her Daddy but she acts just like her Mommy which just melts my heart it's so precious.Madison's been making all these new noises which are awesome.The other night when she wouldn't sleep I tried putting her down in her crib and she smiled and laughed at me like she was saying ha ha i'm not going to sleep alittle later she was asleep.Just wanted to keep updating everyone on whats going on.

My Grandparents

I miss them everyday I miss everything about them and I wish they could have met my daughter sometimes when I look at her I see them in her. When Madison was first born we realized she does a face that my grandfather did all the time it made us smile. People always say that people who passed could have met her before she was sent to me so I hope they got to meet her before she was born. I hope they got to hold her and love her and got to see what a wonderful person she is and what such greatness she's going to bring to the world and she sure brought greatness and so much other amazing things and amazing qualities. She can truly be anything she wants to be.
Sometimes I miss my grandparents so much my heart hurts but I know there always with me in my heart.

People say that eventually I'll forget how traumatic giving birth was but there's still times where it's burned in my mind and I remember what I was feeling and everything.I'm laying in bed trying to get some sleep and for some reason I keep thinking about it and how much pain I was in.People say I'll eventually forget the pain and then feel well enough to have another one but right now I can't even imagine.It still scares me.I love my daughter more then anything though.I love my family.

My New Computer

So I bought new computers for Ray and I in March and one was great and mine had problems from the getgo.So finally after months on end of problems and it being in the geek squad repeatedly they finally gave me a new one yesterday.Luckily they gave me new kaspersky and office too because with getting a new computer those programs weren't transferrable and since I paid for them with the computer that didn't work I wanted them with my new one, of course with paying so much money you want your things and programs. I'm very happy with my new computer just got to learn the in's and out's of windows 8 but so far so good.My computer has amazing sound too!.So it was and is totally worth the wait.The traffic to get the computer was pretty crazy but we got there and it was good and going home was much easier.So Samsung Is a great brand I've always loved there cell phones and there products and now I love there computers too!.

Babies and Schedules

Sometimes its nearly impossible to keep babies on schedule......
Case in point

. Daylight savings time I seriously thought I would enjoy it since we got a extra hour of sleep this time but coming to the fact that it messes up the babies schedule stinks.

. Also when you tell guys i'm trying to keep the baby on a schedule they love to push it so the baby is never getting fed directly when there supposed to.Also when a baby is taking a bottle they sometimes fall asleep during but we're supposed to be patient and try to get them to finish because if they don't that will mess them up and it will make them wake up hungry just a little while later.

. When your out and busy and it's hard to find a place or get to a place that your able to feed the baby at.

There is so many more reasons why it is impossible to keep a baby on a schedule but if I try to list them all I would probably be here all night.I'm finding keeping her on a schedule is one of the hardest things.Today I put her feeding schedule in my phone so hopefully that helps. Lately my phone has been connected to me so I figure it would be useful in this aspect too.Today we we're out shopping at Walmart and I knew when we went in that while we we're in there it would probably be one of her feedings so when the alarm went off I knew I couldn't stretch it too far.Of course when I needed to feed her I couldn't find Ray so I just went to the McDonald's in Walmart and sat and fed her the whole time looking down the main isle for Ray.I swear people thought I was staring at them and  when they saw that I was trying to find someone they we're like "Ohhhh".

I'm hoping it gets easier to keep her on a schedule and she gets used to it and I hope i'm able to get her on a sleeping schedule too which would be so very nice.People often tell me that eventually she'll be sleeping more during the night that would be so nice.Overall she's a great baby we're just working all the kinks in schedules out. I'm very blessed to have such a great baby like her.

Frankenstorm

Wow there's a lot of huff and puff about Frankenstorm people are literally freaking out.Granted if it's really bad then they have a right too and thus my family and I will be staying in the house. What I'm really scared of is if it's really bad and that creek or swamp like thing next to our apartment overflows we're sunk literally granted we do have renters insurance but we really don't want to have to use it. If we flood it will be crazy like that photo from the internet of the man carrying his two cats saving them from the flood.Except i'll have our valuables in a bag on my back the baby in one arm and a cat in the other and then Ray will have his Xbox in a backpack and two cats in his arms.It would defiantly be a sight to see.I can't really imagine not having power or anything I know we have enough food and water to last us awhile but still it would suck.I wonder if our cell phones would still work until they run out of charge or they wont if the cell towers are down and wont work eek that would suck too.Also worrying about trees falling on our car in the parking lot of our apartment eek. I tell you what if the storm is bad I wont want Ray to try to go to the office I will legetly try to hide his keys.I want my whole family to be safe. We will make it everything will be ok.

Aggravated then Motivated

Looseing weight after Baby...Pissed then Motivated

Sometimes i'm the kind of person that needs to get really aggravated to get motivated and that is especially with loosing weight.Struggling with weight your whole life isn't easy in my adult life I was at my lightest before my wedding and then after the wedding it went right back on. Getting injured and not being able to work out and not wanting to work out is what helped it get back on when really I should have been working out no matter what no matter how injured I was I should have been doing something.

   Well now after having a baby I have to loose this weight I  have all the things I need to make it possible I just need that motivation and I feel it creeping around the corner so it should and will be GO TIME. I have a Awesome Husband and Family that support me in really everything I do I have excercise DVD's I have a gym in our complex and a gym membership to one down the road and i have strollers for the baby and her carrier so now I just have to put my feet down and start running to make it possible and make my want and need into present.

    When I was breastfeeding I would let anything really hit my lips unless I would let or like my baby eating it so I stayed away from greesy and sugar and bad for you food and it almost seemed easy since I was doing it for my daughter and wanting to keep what she ate pure and healthy.I just have to think like that again only i'm not breastfeeding I would be doing it so I would be here along time for my daughter and i would be healthy enough to chase her and give her the mother she deserves and needs.When she was born everyone said she was just like her Daddy and it was like I had nothing to do with it except giving birth to her but yes she does look like her Daddy but she has alot of my personaility so i'll have to be in great shape the best shape of my life to keep up with her.Having a baby doesn't just involve taking care of her but it involves taking care of yourself so you can be there for her ( some deep things you think of when you really want to).

    So my plan is........ To do Zumba dvd's at night until my daughters night feeding that gives me a good 2 hrs or so and then i'll already be up for her feeding (granted I might be a lil sweaty but im sure she doesnt mind as long as she gets her baba) go to the gym when my Mom watches the baby during the day and walk around the trail or my Mom's complex once or twice a day with the baby.Two or three hours a day working out should make a difference and eating healthy will to and drinking more water (thank goodness for mio).

Well Healthier Me Is In Progress....................

Welcome Madison Leighann

We are happy to announce the arrival of Madison Leighann after being in labor from Tuesday at 6pm to Thursday at 744pm she's finally here now she is 6 weeks old she was born on August 23,2012 at 744pm 6lbs 4oz 19 inches long she's beautiful and very loved by all!!!!

Updating

I know I havn't updated or wrote a blog in awhile I've been waiting to see if I would have some big news to post like we had our baby girl or something along those lines.We haven't had our daughter yet she's extemely comfortable in my stomach still it's her lil hangout she made it too her specifications and it's perfect since she's been in there for 9 months.I've been trying alot of things to see if she would wanna come out i've tried walking,eating spicy food, eating red licorice I know I know it say's to eat black licorice but I like red better (and hey it's a low fat food) I've also been scared by people but I dont think they we're trying to put me into labor but I can imagine that working but it didn't and I've went over bumps. I've thought of using castor oil ( I know that's a last last resort like if im pregnant at 42 weeks resort) I've heard primrose oil is good and i'm thinking of trying squats,walking around the track a couple times and i'm really thinking about doing Zumba to see if the baby will want to come out with Zumba cause you know she's my child too and she got some moves and rythem and she'll want to do Zumba just like her Mommy.

8/14/2012

So I did walk around the track with Ray the other day it was nice we dont get to walk around the track together to often so it was a treat.Before we walked around the track we installed the carseat into Rays mom's car because Ray's car is having technical difficalties and has been in the shop for awhile but for a car that has 67,000 miles or more on his car that is to be expected.So today was the first day that Ray has been driving with a carseat since we installed it last night and I asked him how it was when we we're driving home from my mom's and he preceeds to turn off the volume of the radio and I hear the babies toys jingle I heard them jingle with the radio on but I wanted to see if they Ray brought it up first lol.He said he hears them but it doesn't bother him too much he's a trooper dealing with jingly toys because always when he drives he has his radio or music on he hates to drive without it.Oh btw since the babies carseat is no longer on the jogger stroller I clapsed that so the cats dont jump in it and get it all hairy it looks kinda weird not seeing it all put up it's nice that the front wheel comes out and it makes it flatter and easier to clapse.

I've been going through nesting latly for the past couple days i've had it bad I was cleaning like a mad woman 2 days ago and then again yesterday and i'll probly be cleaning more today.It's like the house can never be clean enough something is always too messy or something.Latly my project has been our kitchen and wash.I want to clean the oven/stove too but i'll see if Ray can do that part since im not supposed to be near strong chemicals.I've been putting everything in the dishwasher and I've even been going through the kitchen cabinets and organizing them.I've been cleaning the babies room too so that's been keeping me busy I just took down on of the diaper cakes to make room for other stuff and put it away.Now were just waiting for the Princess.

7/24/2012

It seems as if forever since I last wrote a blog but it's really only been a week or two. I am now Offically 34 weeks and it's awesome and the baby has gone from being breech to headdown which is great that's what we were hoping and praying for. I found out that she was headdown and 5lbs 4oz at our appointment today so if our math is right by her due date if she stays in that long she'll be 8 1/2 pounds.We're both so excited for her to be here soon.

Going Into A Match

The match of sleep ding ding ding will I win or will I loose turning and turning circling and circling in the ring. Who's gonna win knowone knows. Hopefully I get to sleep tonight and the announcement of who won will be later today.

Update
After going to sleep around 2am I didn't really get to sleep until around 5am maybe inbetween those times I dozed off but I always woke up again.I just could not get comfortable ethier I was too hot or too sticky or too cold the cold was very very rarely mostly I was hot.Then also dealing with noises around the house and the cats I was just exausted and annoyed because I couldn't get to sleep.Finally around 5am something I just finally fell asleep and I slept until 725am when the alarm went off I don't remember if I had blankets on or not I was just so exausted.So now i'm up for the count and I have a busy day in front of me.

The Miracle Of Life

Today I'm 33 weeks with Our Daughter and I'm enjoying every bit of it now even though i've had to deal with sickness and such it's so entirely worth it.She's been moving alot more and it's such a cool feeling.I love feeling her in my stomach and I love feeling the movements only I could feel the flips the twirls and and the kicks and hits and It's pretty awesome too when she kicks and hits and other people could feel her but I know those special moments when only I could feel it.I was just eating a cup of apple sauce for snack and I have my bottle of water next to me (yup I eat healthy too :) ). As I was eating the applesauce she was moving all over and I was thinking to myself how much like us she is her Daddy and I love applesauce and so does she.She's the apple of our eye.She is one very loved Baby Girl.Her whole family loves her so much her Parents,Grandparents,Uncle,Aunts and Cousins and Everyone we all can't wait to meet her.

My New Breathing Treatment

Me doing the first of many breathing treatments with a nebulizer.I went to a pulmonary doctor to help with asthma and my breathing and I'm on four new medicines including my one I've been on for awhile.Yes these medicines are safe for the Baby.

Loosing weight after the baby

         I've been depressed lately because I'm seeing the weight I put on during my pregnancy and I know the weight I had on before my pregnancy.I know it's normal to gain weight while your pregnant and when I tell people how much weight I've gained they always say it's normal and some say that they have even gained more then me and of course there's the people who have gained less then me. I know sometimes I let my cravings get the best of me and I don't say I didn't.I'm just tired of having this weight on me having problems breathing and having to stop and sit down while I do things it's very annoying. 
          I know I've had myself and my family to loose the weight for before but there's something about having a child that depends on you that makes me want to loose the weight so much more.The fact is i'm now a Mom who will be having a little girl in a couple weeks who will depend on me and need me around for the long run.I know she wont be crawling or walking or running for a couple months but i'll still need to keep up with her everyday demands. I want her to look at me and be proud of me and know that "Mommy changed her life for me Mommy got healthy for me".She's gonna be my mini me just like i'm my mom's mini me so I got to be a good example for her just like my mom was.
            After I have the baby and I feel up to it i'm going to start walking with her and after I get the ok from the doctor i'm going to go back to the gym and start to do classes and such and just working out and getting in better shape.I've already got the gym all set and ready now I just have to get ready.It will be nice to walk with my daughter and always have a walking buddy.I'll also have my Mom as a walking buddy too.I know I can do this I know I can loose this weight. My goal 100lbs or more in a year. Zumba,walking and classes and working out(cardio,weight training etc).

I kinda get aggitated sometimes

I want to do all this stuff and i can't do it the way i want to do it I want to be able to get up and clean without having to sit down all the time because my back or feet hurt.I want to do stuff without being out of breath all the time but hopefully my doctor appt on monday with a pulmonalogist will help me with that I have asthma and I've needed to see a doctor for awhile for it so now im finally seeing on after my obgyn has told me a couple times to see one opps so we'll see what he says.I've been pretty aggitated because I want to loose this weight so bad and i can't wait to go back to the gym and start walking alot with the baby at home and parks and etc and I can't wait to start doing zumba.So my gym membership is all ready i made sure of that today yay.Some doctors say to wait 6 weeks to excercise and such and then some people say start when you feel up to it and just work up gradually so I don't really know what to believe because some doctors are just over protective a bit.But anyways i'm off to vaccum and do dishes and clean the kitchen and stuff and fold and put away clothes.

Pregnancy and Baby Talk

I can firmly say I totally hate brushing my teeth or using mouthwash sometimes while i'm pregnant when it makes me sick it did it again .It sucks enough when your sick with a virus or something to throw up so when you do it and your not sick with a virus it really sucks.

The baby is very active which I love I can sometimes just lift my shirt and watch my the baby move in my stomach it's the coolest thing. Of course when I try to get Ray to watch her move 9 times out of 10 she stops. She love's her Mommy and Daddy though we already know that she'll have us wrapped around her figure so fast. I went to the doctors yesterday and she is still breech butt first a lot of the time in this pregnancy she loved showing off her spine to us when we got ultrasounds so it's kind of weird but we're hoping and praying and hoping some more and praying that she's head down before her big arrival.I really don't want to have a c-section if I can help it.It just does not appeal to me at all but I don't think it appeals to anyone really getting your stomach cut open is not my idea of fun nor anyone else's. I understand that some people have to get c-sections and I respect that or some people choose to get them I just don't want them.On a good note she was 4lbs on the dot yesterday so the ultrasound tech but her bet in that she'll be 7 1/2 lbs at birth we'll see. ( So does anyone else have any bets of what she'll weigh? post your bets and guess's to my Facebook page.)

Fri,Sat,Sun

Friday
We'll Friday was awesome because on thursday when we we're at dinner my amazing husband surprised me and told me he took friday off. I actually used to not like surprises but now I do man does times change and I guess  it's just growing up and changing your mindset. Well back to Friday.... Well this is quite a change we actually got to sleep in and that is a big change for me since baby girl does not like me to sleep in or more frankly she wont let me sleep in or my body wont i'm usually up around 6 or 7 getting up at 8 something or 9 something is deffinetly a rarity and doesn't happen often at all.Then we had to do errands I had to drop my laptops off at best buy to get checked out which stunk I got one of them back already but my other one is still in there :(((( and then it was off to target,the amish market and back home to relax ( pregnant women need naps ) then we met my in-laws at Olive Garden which was so yummy. South Brunswick fireworks we're that night so we went from Olive Garden to the fireworks were absolutly packed to the brim even kids were trying to sell spots in there families drive way it was so packed. There was a back up all the way to where the fireworks we're and I was trying to ask the cops directing traffic if i could get a closer spot since i'm almost due but there was none so we just ended up going home and then the boys My Hubby and My Brother playing games My Mom was there too we we're hanging out with them all day it was fun.We also took a 20 minute trip to eldorado which was completly dead so the boys drank there drinks I drank my ginger ale mom drank her diet coke and we were off for our place again where they dropped us off and our night came to a close. Overall I had a great Friday!!!!.



Saturday
Had to get up at 645am it's crazy but it's our life Hubby had to work he usually does every Saturday.While he was at work I was at home relaxing I had some morning sickness that morning so I caught up on Baby Story on our dvr. I try to watch and clean out my baby story on my dvr every week which usually happens sometimes during the week sometimes on weekends I love my dvr lol. Well after Ray got home we were off to the doller store I had to pick up a couple things and then to Our friend Mikes condo in princeton which has these stairs that are tourture to any person more so to a very pregnant person and I think I had to go up 4 times and down them 4 times so I deffinetly got my workout I had my inhaler with me if I needed it thank goodness. After we we're at Mike's awhile we decided to go see the amazing spiderman which was awesome and after the movies we went to dusals itailian restaurant so yummy and back to mikes till 1030pm needless to say it was a long day.We came home I found my spot on the couch and took my normal nap and ray played games which he loves there his form of relaxation which is awesome.




Sunday
Sunday the most relaxing day of them all we slept in and stayed home most of the day which was great because I still wasn't 100% from being sick the day before.We decided to stay home from church because I wasn't feeling great and it was a abbreviated service since everyone was in san antonio for a conference anyway. On friday or saturday I tried to turn on Rays comouter to use it since mine we're in the shop and his wouldn't turn on at all so we had to put his in the shop or so we thought anyway.We also got a call that one of my laptops we're ready for pick up yay, I love my itouch but there's only so much you can do and you really miss a full keyboard after awhile.So we went to best buy and got my computer and then proceded to check in Ray's and what happens they get his to turn on it was just completly and utterly drained of juice and they worked there magic and got it to turn on.After best buy we went to my moms house for some ribs and stuff which was yummy my brother actually did a good job ( Just dont tell him that it might get to his head lmao I Love ya chris lamo ) my mom did a great job too she always does she's my mommy.I dont care how old you are you can still call your mom your mommy.After dinner Ray had to go to work and I stayed at my mom's watching movies and finally getting to go on the computer again and blogging again yay.After Ray got off work we just packed our computers and went home to relax and play with our kitties.
And that's our weekend folks.

Sometimes life doesn’t want to give you something you want, not because you don’t deserve it, but because you deserve more. ♥

Isn't it crazy when you know how to do something and you just can't remember how to do it like your having a brain fart or something ughhhh.

First Blog post of a new blog Wow.


     I just came home today from a amazing vacation to Wildwood NJ granted it was a mini vaca but it was still needless to say a awesome one.Family,Loved ones,reminissing and talk about my bun in the oven my beautiful Princess.We had to end our trip today because Hubby had to work tonight but we still had fun and we stopped at Golden Corral Cinnaminson on the way home I haven't been to one since I was there with my In-laws and Hubby on the way home from Myrtle Beach last September.
Tonight I have been going on the computer and catching up on things and trying to fix minor problems with it but it's going for a trip to the doctors but I hate for it to leave my sight even for a night ( who am I kidding I hate to have it away from my house for even a hour) I know I know Addicted lol well not creepy kind but I just love my computer. Tonight I have also been trying to clean Our/Princesses Room cleaning out her crib,cleaning and picking up the floor,vaccuming etc. Of course being almost 8mths pregnant which I will offically be on monday I had to take breaks do some sit down repeat and try to be hydrated in the process and of course the bathroom runs lol. It's so nice to have a clean room and you deffinetly find stuff that needs to get done and I do laundry all the time as a matter of a fact I'm doing some now and have to do more tonight..... Hubby is off tommarow so that's nice sleeping in in the morning and doing some shopping need to get some more regular strength tums I love them and need them alot heartburn sucks and just found a new love of pepermint tums yum well if you have to take them you mase well like the flavors I usually do fruity flavors but pepermint has its own awesome taste too.Then later that night South Brunswick Fireworks woohoo I Love Fireworks!!!!! 3rd time i've seen fireworks this week #$%% West Windsor,Wildwood and Now South Brunswick#$%% Sweet. Well I guess I should get back to the room and get done or in the process of. Hopefully No Cats In the Crib.