New House New Breath Of Fresh Air!!.

We moved into our amazing awesome home in the end of june and we love it!!! its so much better so much more free er if you know what I mean less cramped and claustrophobic and not hopeless like the last place. The last place was a nice starter place and we had many great memories there but we just grew out of it. It came to a point where we resented it and what it was doing to us it was making us sad and unhappy. Anyone who knew us knew we had to move. We went to a bbq today and people were asking about our new place and we were telling them how amazingly great it is as we were telling them they would say or just act like you must be so relieved to be out of the old place. everyone knew how much of a toll it took on us mentally and physically.


   It's so weird but great at the new place which I didn't wan to at the old place I actually love cleaning here and making it nice and perfect and our home!! I feel so much pride!!! I want everything to be perfect even the grout in the tiles its just awesome I love love love love love love it here!!!! we all do!!!. well that's all for now talk to you soon.

My Grandfather

My Grandfather was and will always be one of my best friends I miss him with all my heart and soul every day. It never gets easier you just learn to deal with your emotions better. He was my rock the man I always looked up too. He was my father when I needed one and my supporter all the time, he always believed in me and my goals and dreams. My faith in heavenly father and heaven tells me  and shows me I will see him again and I know I will. I feel him around me all the time he's in my thoughts and in my prayers and in my heart and in the way I do things that remind me of him. He knows my hopes and dreams for my daughter my beautiful baby Madison and the life I want to give her and the life I want her to have.
 
I MISS HIM AND LOVE HIM.

What the mind see's

The way your body is and the way your mind sees your body is two different things. In my mind I'm a 130- 140lb bubbly active girl who loves herself and her appearance. In reality I have totally let myself go from a life of not eating correctly and not exercising regularly. Never in my life have I been in shape not even when I was a child. I want to overcome all these hurdles and see what my mind see's I want my daughter to see what my mind see's I want her to know that mommy wants her to have the best mommy and most in shape and healthy mommy she can have. I am going to try to loose 20lbs in a month.

Being Mommy To A Sick Kiddo

 Knock on wood........ this is the first time Madison has been really sick she's had ear infections and such before but this upper respitory infection is different. I have never seen so much bodily fluids in a long time and then kids being kids they smear them everywhere. I have been giving Madison nebulizer treatments since Friday (that's when It got to the need to see a doc point) the nebulizer treatments are working she is getting better slowly but surely. In this mess of her being sick she has gotten me sick so we are sick buddies I am so bad at being sick ughh. Asthma doesn't make it any better when i'm sick like this it feels as if a elephant is on my chest doing a circus show ( on another note that circus disaster is crazy) well not being able to breathe is not fun not being able to take deep breathes is horrible and it means no working out or running. With all this sickness and not being able to work out it has meant I am gaining weight which I hate I cant wait until I am healthy and can work out again. I took a shower and felt as if I was gonna faint so I had to sit down and relax its so a sweat outfit day.