Dreams

Are dreams some cosmic way of sending us messeges or telling us something or just some way of having fun with us. I also know that kids wake up with nightmares when there learning something new because there scared of it.I learned that in psychology.

Time To Get Mad!!!

I'm tired of always just saying ok it will get better or just be disappointed it's time to get mad. No more Mrs. Nice Woman I mean business. This weight isn't gonna come off by me taking my time and laleegagging. When I get tired during the day get mad when it's early and I get tired or just lazy get mad and get out there. I Can Do This!!!!!!!!.

Weight

I hope that someday i'll start to loose weight and it will have just clicked. I wouldn't have to think that depriving myself all the time is the only way to loose weight or making myself sick.I know i'm not perfect but it seems like this weight just wont go anywhere.All this weight makes me very self conscious and when I see skinny people I am so jealous.The way there husbands look at them I wish my husband would look and me and be in total aweee like I am of him.I know people that are not skinny minis have husbands that love them like that too.I just wish I could feel better about myself I dye my hair,wear my clothes differently,not wear 98% of my maternity clothes anymore I've done a lot.I guess the only thing too do is to workout like a mad women again, last time I did that though I messed up my calf and strained a muscle then complained and stopped working out for awhile in general.It feels as if I work out regularly no results med not enough results and when I workout high speed ahead i get tired and pissed off that i'm doing all this work and it's not dropping like it should.Before our wedding it would drop so awesomely and now its just like it's frozen and doesn't want to move.I could go on and on about the imperfections about my body but that wouldn't help anyone.Ughh I know I don't eat like i should but when I diet like I think i should i eat like a rabbit and feel so deprived and jelous people can eat things and I can't.I have got to figure out a way to do this.